I have to start writing more frequently in this blog, it feels like it was just yesterday I posted last time, but it's almost a month ago now... And a lot of thing has happened since then.
Today a friend of mine told me she was with child... I got so surprised when she said it, but of course very happy for her sake. She and the guy who she is living with are just wonderful together. I guess since we're in the same class it really feels like we're the same age and to me... well becoming a parent is far away in the future... got to find the right guy and all that first... and that seems to take some time..hehe.
Although she is a few years older then me, it still feels strange that she's going to be a parent the coming summer...
Well as I mentioned earlier a lot of things has happened lately, the guy I thought I was interested in turned up one day with his girlfriend... surprise. :/ Well I guess it's for the better. It's quite funny actually since I just the evening before that happened had started to doubt if I really did like him as much as I thought... or if it was just the impatient lonely side of me who just wanted *something* to be there. Anyway, I won't have to worry more about that now at least.
Also, today, I've started to read a really great book by Anthony Robbins, "Unlimited Power". It's about finding your inner strength and use it to grow as a person, using something called NLP (Neuro-Linguistic Programming). I haven't really got a grasp on it yet, but I think it's about how to take better control on your inner and outer language, and shape it to make you more effective and reach beyond your imagined limits. I'm both positive and a bit skeptical about this method... I really do think you can achieve more in life and become a better person just by becoming more aware about yourself and your surroundings. But the idea of changing yourself by adapting someone else's behavior isn't really appealing to me... But I guess it's a little what you do about persons that you look up to. Trying to change yourself to the better by adapting what you like by them...
It all started when I was on a really great lecture in school by a guy named Thomas Enhager, who coaches elite sportsmen. He talked a lot about how important it is that you start to take an inner responsibility before you try to affect the surroundings. Starting to think about how you want to be as a person in 10 years, or how you want your relation to someone to be, and then think about what you can do to try to reach that goal. I talked to him afterwards and he recommended this book then. So far I think I like his lecture better then Anthony Robbins book, but then again I've barely started to read it
hmm.. well I have to see... I've started to feel some kind of uneasiness lately and it frustrates me that I can't put my finger on what it is that creates it... Maybe this book can help me somehow. Right now I guess I will just have to try to quell the feeling until I encounter whatever is it's source.. For now I just want to enjoy the coming of Christmas.